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01.11.09

" I feel so numb.I hate parents. I just hate them.They dont realize how terrible they can make our lives. It's so easy to do and they don't even care. They care about their happiness and what they think is right, not even taking into consideration we are our own people with our own minds and needs.If she wants her to be happy, this is NOT the way to do it.I just dont know what to doHannah told her mom last night.This morning her mom found Hannah's camera with pictures of us kissing.Hannah's mom makes her call me and her mom talks to me saying I'm never allowed to talk to her again. On the computer, on the phone, anywhere. ever. until she's 18.She's "not comfortable with this" and she's "sure I'm a nice girl, but she's going to have to ask me to leave her daughter alone." She " doesn't want to have to call my mom."I just stood there shaking. What could I say?Hannah's bawling, I can't cry because I'm at the barn and my grandma was there to pick me up.I'm so upsetI'm sitting here bawling my eyes out.I dont even know what to doI dont know what to doShe doesn't deserve this, not at all. She's such a good person, she doesn't deserve to have all this shit happen.All she could say to me over and over again while she was bawling was "I'm so sorry. I'm sorry. I don't want to hurt you."I don't know what to do.I just want to go save her. I dont want this to happen to her.She told her mom for me. She thought maybe it would make it easier for us to be together.-- and for anyone still confused, Hannah is my girlfriend. She told her mom she likes girls last night.She doesn't deserve this shit.oh my fuck I hate life"